Thursday, April 18, 2019



our mornings have grown
the newness settled into a routine
i soon learned the differences in coffee
my predictable can
versus your bag of exotic beans
i learned the grinder whine
as beans were reduced to a powder
the touch of cinnamon 
my sweet Italian cream
were more than mere compromises
they were a confluence of mighty rivers
where differences became a mutuality
my walk to the bedroom
my morning ritual, bringing you coffee
i am the early riser
setting the coffee on the nightstand
lowering to my knees, reaching across
my arm cups you to my lips
and with that ritual i do 
begin the rivers flowing to the sea
where once we were separated
we are now joined forever


2/5/19


we go at times for Sunday drives
sometimes she drives
times when i do
as the country rolls by
music fills the car
we always have a destination
times it is a picnic by a stream
where the trees dance in breezes
blue jays beg at our table
should raccoons appear, she is ready
she has prepared food for them
walking on stones across the creek
she becomes that tomboy
unafraid and bold
yet such a lady
as she sets the table, mats, plates, ware
Tupperware with tops removed
she balances the two in adorable ways
some women bore you to death with either one
the drive home is with relaxing music
my hands on the wheel at 10 and 2
she is taking notes of lines i construct 
creativity always a possibility
suggests a change in a word
a better sentence construction
we have said little
we have loved much
today we set out on a Sunday drive
hand in hand
hearts entwined in the day
i will wash and clean the Tupperware
dry and put away
while she relaxes in a scented bath
candles aglow surround her
we are ready for the coming week

2/5/19



now that the children have left

the nest has quietened
she has it planned, the rooms
this one for her crafting
this one for guests
yet her crafting room 
can quickly handle any overflow
should holidays see a return
of the swallows now making their way
in the worlds, they have chosen
i wanted to sell it all off
buy us a cabin in the woods
or a boat sailing the world
a condo on some exotic beach
but the reality is her moorings here
that reality is the only reality
the dream i hold most precious
and such thoughts transport me
i am back in the restaurant
That's Amore is playing
when you hold a dream
yet knowing it is not a dream
the arms that hold you close
are the reality of your every dream
she smiles that smile
let the poet play, she says
had you said a retirement community
i would have serious grounds
believing you had abandoned your senses
she has a point
we will restructure the living quarters
and the guest room 
will have an apartment sized refrigerator
that she can stock before guests arrive
as i have told so many, pick any National Park
i can believe she is responsible
behind the design of the fauna, flora
she is a combination of common sense, beauty 
yes, That's Amore
the only dream i have ever really desired
is the one she walks in within me
one in which my lips devour that Duchenne smile
one in which the gravity in her eyes
holds everything dearest to me
in a carousel orbit of music and magic

2/5/19



i took her riding
this time my venue, not hers
mine was this little park
where we would steal away
paddle boats thru the geese and ducks
she would always pack up bread
i always gave her notice
she would buy the better bread
the day old the bakery dumps cheap
it is healthier she will tell you
but my magic moment is the carousel
round and round we go
back in line to do it again
holding onto the bar i lean in
to grab a kiss from my girl
as the music and horses dance in a wonderland
the Wurlitzer organ fills the air with a bewitchment
we join parents and children in the magic
later we retire upon a bench
from her bag appears our humble offerings
the ducks and geese beg at our feet
she delights in each morsel she throws
the happiness she wears on her face
i see Mother Goose in the crowd approving
drakes and hens galore with ducklings
the beauty of joy fills her eyes
to love her is to share her
such a small price to pay
to ride the carousel hand in hand
the alchemy in whirling horses and music
from an age long gone now
my treasure, a moment all to myself with her
the thrill i still have with stolen kisses

3/2/19

Wednesday, April 17, 2019





occasionally she likes a trail ride
i am forced upon this beast
who does not know me
does not care for me
but as i watch her ride
she points out the different trees
evergreens versus deciduous
looks green and safe to me i say
don't go near or touch, she warns
knows all her birds, raptors included
and so we ride
at trails end, i count burdens for love
such as saddle sores
on the way home i muse
it is possible, in the Big Bang
she gave the elements their final destinations 
as well as possible combinations
i could easily believe she set the speed for light
so of course, she is knowledgeable
as would be any architect wandering Manhattan
pointing to the skyscrapers
saying, simple, tension, shear, and stress
the blessing in all of this
i no longer suffer saddle soreness
i am a sailor with my sea legs
upon a sea of love
no doubt when God looks upon her
He is as charmed as i am with her
they say never look a gift horse in the mouth
i don't, i just climb in the saddle

2/6/19 




we have had the deepest of hurts
when the natural order seems to go awry
i have held you in those times
drained that hurt and placed into my soul
buried the darkness deep within me
so that light only could find your face
brought you back into the light
i am the patient stone
knowing we need never deny
we know those depths
but they can no longer hurt 
i watch you as a perched falcon
never do i leave your side
held you until the tears had all dried
placed my finger beneath your chin
gently lifting your eyes into mine
we will smile again
our love will heal us
our faith will not let us fail
bitterness will find no refuge
time is our constant companion
you have come to understand that infinity
placing flowers on certain occasions
this my love i promise you
there will come a time
when we will all be together
a time when there is no looking back
a time when the stars will have no end
a time when the heavens unfold
into halcyon days, endless meadows
filled with our every love
until then i am the patient stone
the wolf that never leaves your shadow

2/7/19
  • The Patient Stone (sang-e sabur), the most empathetic of listeners, that is believed to absorb the sorrows and pains of the person who confides in itself. It is said that when the stone can no longer contain the pain it harbors, it bursts into pieces.



those early attempts at a Mexican food
no store bought cardboard taco shells
she had to prepare her own
the appearance of the tortilla press
the arrival of the tortilla holder
became a beginning to a menagerie of new tools 
experiments with red and green chili
she chose to pursue red, much spicier

and as with her marinara ages well in the freezer
as i have well noticed sitting at the table
each addition of graying, each wrinkle
an age spot upon alabaster hands
across that table, my love has only deepened

having stolen more than my heart
she had captivated the soul therein 
she prefers beef to pork
altho her lemon-pepper pork roast is heavenly
marinated in lemons from the tree she chose
and her secret assembly of spices and pepper
taco meat is seasoned to perfection
she shreds and marinates the beef
a lecture on judicious use of cheaper roasts
her own hand made pico de gallo
store-bought never, revealing the craft
chopping onions with nary a tear
the utensils began accruing
setting up the kitchen one could see Mexico
it is the same for a poem
lines that need work, crafting language
a process ensuring a satisfactory execution
it is a labor of love
a dedication to the creativity you possess
rewarding the gift with unceasing labor
how well i remember the decision
Mexican rice simply fails the assault
Spanish rice, diced tomatoes, basil. onion
garlic was thrown in to mix with vermicelli
changing at times with yellow rice, coloring
topped with more diced tomatoes, cilantro
a light coloring shredded cheese
sometimes an interplay of white and yellow
it is a poem that grows in language
and so you see when i say
each bite a sonnet, each dish is part
of my best-loved poems
i am talking about the presentation
the red chili burro smothered in sauce
upon a bed of green shredded lettuce
hemmed in by diced tomatoes, black olives
topped by shredded white and yellow cheese
with dollops of sour cream and avocado
another plate of quesadillas
filled with green chilis, green olives, cheese
one never knew which cheese she would choose
Fresco, Oaxaca, Manchego, Asadero
my yellow, white American disappeared with marriage
tacos stuffed with spicy shredded beef
not like restaurant style
an exhilarating ride thru spice and herb
spilling out shredded lettuce, tomatoes, cheese
homemade salsa to top it all
it is a gastronomical orgasm
i never achieved with any poet
and altho the children are gone
one would think meals would be simpler
her craft is never to be denied
as i have said a thousand times
my only goal is to encourage hers
and hers is the magic upon the table
the sorceress who loves me
is enough in my life
once i showed up wearing a sombrero
she looked at me across from the kitchen
do i make faces at you when writing, she said
to displease a chef is folly, 
never again did the sombrero appear
but the tongue of love did become whispers
arrows of adoration seeking her with serious intent
taking her hand, locking into eyes, a ship in harbor
sus ojos son pajaros, de quien roban
mi pensamientos, mi aliento, mi corazon
en tus brazos el cielo encontre
your eyes are birds who steal my thoughts
my breath, my heart
in your arms, i have found heaven
if love in you does not evoke another language
you have failed to explore its possible depths
you have failed the language love bears
yet the bigger sin in all of this
is to miss the poetry that fills our lives
the poetry that requires nary a word to behold
only an eye for the beauty that envelopes existence

3/3/19



that first Christmas, gifts were meager
the turkey was not exactly cooked to done
and the side dishes, well from this point
they were not exactly the masterpieces
i sit down to now
the tree was a bit misshapen
i surprised you with an angel for the top
all these years later, still there
carefully stored under her supervision
survivor of each child taught respect
it became a family ceremony 
the next tree had to be finished before returning
the blessing of what women hold precious
each child shared the honor 
of presenting the angel to their mother 
we called it reaching the age of reverence
decorations were a bit simpler, here and there
but true to the season, green and red
as i look out now at the Winter Wonderland
you have created this year
it is the nature of you to remain faithful
to the Spirit, Gift of the Magi
but the most wonderful part in this remembrance
there is something that has never changed
the gratefulness within my heart
when i gaze upon you
what greater honor is there in a man's life
that a gift you gave is held in perpetuity 
in her heart, as the angel mounts her position
she goes from the angel and into my eyes
wearing that Duchenne smile
every Christmas i am reminded
i could not wish for more than that moment
when angels acknowledge one another

3/1/19



rain at work is not the same
at home with you it is everything
weekend breakfasts of hot chocolate coffee
croissants stuffed with egg, bacon, cheese
baked hash brown pie, cheese, bacon, chilis, onions
then crisped in an iron skillet
monkey bread for dessert
watching you in the kitchen
i do not count utensils, pans, plates
i will wash, dry 
return to where they rest 
until you the sorceress
commands them forward
however, my favorite are sharing rainy days with you
the entryway closet housing walking gear
those Pooh and Piglet saunters in the rain
playing in puddles, best way to spend the day
she says, as we walk hand in hand
it is as if the Creator has spoken
unto this day you are bound to one another
rejoice in the love you have been given
these are the dearest remembrances
when i am at work, look out the window
watch the rain, hearing in its prater
the wind whispering your name
my heart longs for those arms
lips that hunger to crush yours
i rise from my desk, walk to the window
looking out at the storm my soul has one desire
to be lost with you in an afternoon nap
as the rain gently falls from the heavens
paradise enow

2/7/19